Kirjad Annikenile.

I don't want to change extreme to opposite I have been. Of course I totally loved to be aware and I like knowing that we can play our future trough in mind, we can easily see some results by just some decisions we are making. It is almost like math.

I am calm. But the whole structure of my life has changed. Scares me little bit as well. It is like rouse, revive... nothing from the past is really seducing me.

Since I go therapist now I am going through lot of situations from my past. And the meanings for them and the growth? 

I understand that, I have to be thankful for everything I had because without it, I would not write this now, I would not be or know those things. I would have no glue about it.

But then again, glue about what? It is a feeling that is impossible jet, to put it into words...